Surrender
Surrender is my word, a word that I don't know I have explored too much up until this point in my life. As bitter as it is, it also has a surprisingly sweet side to it too. What a journey it has been.
I was diagnosed with the BRCA2 gene mutation. This news meant that I have up to an 85% chance of developing breast cancer, among other increased risks of other cancers too. We didn't take this lightly, but we also didn't let it spin us out of control. I have spent the last 15 months educating myself, reading alternative options, going to dozens of appointments, getting mammograms, MRI's and subsequent biopsies, and praying for guidance each day on how to proceed. Being an oncology nurse, the answer seemed obvious to me not only logically- but spiritually too. God's hand truly has been involved in every way. I chose to move forward with a preventative double mastectomy in April. Living a life of surveillance and meticulous examinations every 6 months was not the right fit for me or my family.
In preparation of this upcoming surgery, my most recent MRI showed a new enhancing mass, triple the size of my last one. I was told to prepare for the worst, as it appeared to be malignant- weeks before my "preventative" surgery. Astounding the doctors, my biopsy results were described to be a mass that "mimics cancer". But my oncologists are concerned enough, they are moving my surgery up to March 13th- next week! Please pray for my family and me as we take on a battle we never knew we would find ourselves in. I'm humbled to know that the most loving Heavenly Father has shown us His hand and His love in so many tangible ways. Letting go, trusting and allowing Him to take charge is when surrendering gets real and miracles happen. Thanks for your love and prayers. If you would like updates, I'll put a link in the comments below soon.
I was diagnosed with the BRCA2 gene mutation. This news meant that I have up to an 85% chance of developing breast cancer, among other increased risks of other cancers too. We didn't take this lightly, but we also didn't let it spin us out of control. I have spent the last 15 months educating myself, reading alternative options, going to dozens of appointments, getting mammograms, MRI's and subsequent biopsies, and praying for guidance each day on how to proceed. Being an oncology nurse, the answer seemed obvious to me not only logically- but spiritually too. God's hand truly has been involved in every way. I chose to move forward with a preventative double mastectomy in April. Living a life of surveillance and meticulous examinations every 6 months was not the right fit for me or my family.
In preparation of this upcoming surgery, my most recent MRI showed a new enhancing mass, triple the size of my last one. I was told to prepare for the worst, as it appeared to be malignant- weeks before my "preventative" surgery. Astounding the doctors, my biopsy results were described to be a mass that "mimics cancer". But my oncologists are concerned enough, they are moving my surgery up to March 13th- next week! Please pray for my family and me as we take on a battle we never knew we would find ourselves in. I'm humbled to know that the most loving Heavenly Father has shown us His hand and His love in so many tangible ways. Letting go, trusting and allowing Him to take charge is when surrendering gets real and miracles happen. Thanks for your love and prayers. If you would like updates, I'll put a link in the comments below soon.
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